In my head

In My Head 

 I can't run. I can't hide. I close all the doors and windows. Yet, I still Hear their voices
Memories I wish I’d forgotten 
Displaying in my head like
A cinema..
I'm stuck in my head and my thoughts are killing me.
I feel dead waiting for my last breath… there is no healing me.
I want to run ..but they won't leave me..
Alone
I cover my ears screaming my loudest
Yet, no-one could hear me
Hopelessly staring at the ceiling.
Knowing that no one is coming to save Me
These thoughts won't go away.
I choose to sit in silence. Letting my tears
Flow, hoping for a better day.
I lie down, floating
My pillow wet with tears..and decide to pray...
......dead yet alive.

Poem by Gostie, South Africa, July 2025
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